I believe a few posts back, I declared that I would no longer post anything that was near depressing, dark or anything that has something to do with negativity….So this post will be the exact opposite. The end of the first month of the New Year is slowly approaching, and I can tell that things are headed into the right direction. I told myself that in 2010 I would attempt to continue to improve all aspect of my life and allow constructive criticism to light the fire for me to get better…and so far so good. So here are a few updates in my life since I don’t blog on a regular basis anymore.
1) I absolutely love having my own apartment. I finally have something that I can call my own. I pay my own bills and I don’t ask anyone for anything. My home is a reflection of who I am and I’m extremely blessed to be in a position to live on my own. Living by myself does have some obvious disadvantages, but I do enjoy the freedom, and comfort. My goal was to create a peaceful atmosphere, and that will be established once I buy my couch lol.
2) Towards the 2009, I think I was getting a little frustrated with work. There was big change that affected me, and I often allowed my temper to get the best of me. I got to a point where I felt like I lost my voice, and no one really valued my opinion. So when people were trying to have a conversation with me, I would immediately put on a defense because I felt like the world was against me….this year I’ve adjusted my attitude and I now think before I speak. (for the most part).
3) After all of the wrong that I’ve done throughout my life…I can see that people still love me enough to stand behind me even in my most difficult time. I do believe that God places people in your life for reason, and I’m surrounded by an over flow of love, that I honestly wish wasn’t there at times. But I can’t allow myself to not open my heart to love and help when I know there are times when I need it the most.
4) I enjoy being single. I absolutely LOVE not answering to anyone. It’s the best thing in the world, I can see and talk to whoever I want to, and I don’t have to feel bad when I break my neck to look at a woman’s backside (I know I’m horrible- It’s a guy thing). I’ve been in a relationship for so long, I almost forgot how much freedom a man has when he doesn’t have a significant other. But with all that being said, I don’t believe I’ve taken advantage of being single yet. I haven’t started talking to anyone new, I still haven’t invited anyone to the crib, and If I exchange numbers with a woman, I never call. I did start talking to someone in my past…but that lasted all of 3 days before I told her to grow up, and deleted her number from my phone.
So 2010 has been good to me so far. If I can continue to have this positive outlook on my life and it’s turn of events, I know in my heart that I will have a pretty good year. I love the way things are headed and I just need to stay on the right path.